Why do we think we are really in control, when clearly we aren’t?
What does it mean to trust in the universe and surrender and I think this is an easy statement let go? To say “oh I trust in the universe.” but what does it really mean?
I have been dealing with the personal situation that has been really testing my ability to surrender to source, the universe. What I have found is that it is really coming up against my need to control everything. Some things are pretty easy to let go of, let’s say a situation dealing with some friends, but this situation with my family is really tested me to see how willing I really am to let go of the need to control and really surrender. I must admit this was a doozy!
Trusting that things are exactly the way they’re supposed to be for our higher learning can be extremely challenging. What I have come to know is that the more I resist surrendering, the more it settles in my body. It is interesting how I can meditate and pray and say I am surrendering but my body is saying that I haven’t. I am observing my body, knowing that it will tell me the truth about my real surrender. I also notice that it takes a few days for it to follow.
I know that I am here to really connect to whom I truly am and that every situation is pointing me in the direction of this truth. It is only my ego mind that keeps me from knowing this truth. The weird thing about it is that I know this and yet still the battle between my ego mind and my higher self persists. So I know who’s winning out by how I’m feeling. When my ego has the upper hand I am usually suffering on some level.
My job is to step outside of myself and pay attention to who is running the show and make sure I adjust accordingly. To sink into this place of knowing and trusting that everything is the way it is for a particular reason and I can’t change or fix the outcome. That I need to just simply let go and surrender.
